I’m not sure what’s worse wanting something so bad that it drives you nuts, or wanting something bad enough but may not get it.
I’m no longer comfortable with the building I’m living in for extremely personal reasons. There’s also this really awesome place that I wish we could move to like last month, but we need a co-signer. Sadly those aren’t easy to come by.
Knowing that there’s a much better place out there and the fact that it’s just out of reach due to needing a co-signer makes it even difficult to stay here.
Trying to explain to people that no matter how big this complex is that doesn’t mean I won’t run into the person that’s causing me the discomfort. In fact, I see them more than I like and it just makes it so I never want to leave the apartment.
Ugh, I need something to seriously keep my mind busy or something if a co-signer can’t be found or falls through or something and we have to stay here. Maybe this first step of writing down partly what’s going on will help me.